It's been a year since I leave this blog, and I miss the time when I was so passionate about books, coffee, and all cozy things. I miss the old of myself, everything...
And now I'm back to myself, I guess?
There's so much thing I have learned after this few years... I don't know how to tell that, I can only describe that as a chocolate. There's a combination of bitter and sweet. I'll start with the time after the internship.
After I finished my internship, I spend my time with family, by doing house chores, like the time before. I take a break until Eid day. Then, I continue working back as a teacher. In that time, I feel so excited, got so many ideas for activity with the kids.
After 9 months being a teacher and work with them, I realised, that I've been used by them, by doing anything they can't do, just because they don't know how to handle that. I got to much pressure just because I can't work like them, I've to be multitasking, I've to be like what they want me to be, I can't enjoy myself with anything. But then, after 1 year, I decided to meet a doctor and in early October, I've been diagnosed by a doctor, I got Major Depression (M.D.D).
Early November, I decided to quit from this job, and I take 3 months for a break from any job, On January, I decided to find a job and work as a promoter or you can call me salesgirl. to be honest, this is not my dream job or something that I passionate, like how exciting I'm whenever I get into Hamleys. I'm trying to recover back by not working as a teacher until I'm ready with kids. It's not as easy as you see. When people ruin what you passionate about.
And now, I'm trying to recover from that pain and try to move on from the kids.
I'm not just lost my interest in kids, I'm also got a problem with trusting people.
I'm trying to get back into myself back...
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